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Wednesday, September 3, 2008

CRAP!!!
I'm sick of this crappin idiotic life!
My family keeps thinking I'm so freakin' free!
Am I?
NO!!!!!!!!!!!
I have to help out with a stupid Mediabytes project everyday!!!
I'm given a job, I can't be irresponsible!
I have to manage my homework and studies!
I have to figure out crappin Angles which I have no idea how to!
I have to this and that, and I can't even sleep early as I need to do work!
I can't teach my sister.
I can't bring Goldie for his walk.
I can't eat slowly.
I can't spend time with my family.
I can't talk with my Mummy.
I can't play the piano.
I can't prove my trustworthiness.
I can't prove my responsibility.
I can't chat on the phone.
I can't even find time to write my stories and draw, dammit!!!
It doesn't mean that every time I use the computer, I'm just using the computer...
I need to work to you know?
I don't even get to eat lunch at a proper time!
I have to swallow stupid criticisms just because that person doesn't understand and refuses to understand my thoughts!
I don't understand what the shit my parents' are thinking about against each other!
I don't even know how long I can last before everything splits up!
I'm slow when it comes to studies because I'm stupid, retarded and a spas.
What?
I can't be slow?
I walk slow, run slow, think slow, react slow ...
I can't help it!
You think I want it?
You think I like it?
It's not my fault!
And when things get a little to quick for me, I go crazy and can't manage my time at all!
Like now!!!!!!!!
I just want to be a happy-go-lucky carefree kid/teenager, whatever!
Why can't I?
Why do I keep questioning God?
Why can't I have a simple belief?
...
WHY DO THEY THINK I'M SO FREE?
GOD, I CAN'T TAKE THIS MUCH LONGER.

Right now, so many of my works have to be done via computer.
Are they gonna start accusing me of using the computer for so long and not spending time with my family?
I want to chill with my family too, ya know?!??!?!?!
I love them!
But I need to chillax and seriously.
Typing the Story for my daughter which I promised is leisure for me!
Reading Manga and drawing Manga too.
Surfing the Net for more piano pieces to play.
*sobs*
Is that too much to ask?
All I want...
These are my leisures.
Lame.
Weird.
Boring.
Fun?
Not likely?
But that's what YOU PEOPLE think.
I know I'm different, and I like that.
Who wants to be too normal? It's boring.
The point is, these are my only leisure.
...
I know they don't include other people but hey.
Can I help it that my interests involve only one person?
I can't force and interest you know?!

I still have to maintain in Express.
I don't know if I can actually do it.
It's not easy for me.
I can't pass Maths or Chinese.
I'm trying.
I'm trying...

People don't see that but I'm really trying.
But every time, I try, people assume that I'm not.
And once they fix their mind on it that I'm not trying, nothing I say can change their minds!
...

Alright.

Finished venting my anger.

Time to go study that freakin' Maths or are you gonna contradict me again?

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